The sneering of Beatrice, all over again. It keeps happening to him, doesn't it? Over and over and over, he's continually betrayed - for what? For their own satisfaction? For the misery and suffering and cruelty it all brings, the look on his own face?
It's all the same. It's all the same, but -
It still....hurts. Hikage...even if he didn't know him that well, to see this...to see his true self, only seeking to cause despair and lap it up -
It certainly makes him tear up, despite himself. To let himself cry, not just for the situation...but for everyone else.
And in his eyes...it's clear that he also despairs.
'Why...does it all...have to be so painful...? Is it...really because of the Curse? ....I'm so tired. ....I hate this. I hate this so much. I just want it to stop. It hurts, and yet.... ...It won't stop, will it...?']
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The sneering of Beatrice, all over again. It keeps happening to him, doesn't it? Over and over and over, he's continually betrayed - for what? For their own satisfaction? For the misery and suffering and cruelty it all brings, the look on his own face?
It's all the same. It's all the same, but -
It still....hurts. Hikage...even if he didn't know him that well, to see this...to see his true self, only seeking to cause despair and lap it up -
It certainly makes him tear up, despite himself. To let himself cry, not just for the situation...but for everyone else.
And in his eyes...it's clear that he also despairs.
'Why...does it all...have to be so painful...?
Is it...really because of the Curse?
....I'm so tired.
....I hate this.
I hate this so much.
I just want it to stop.
It hurts, and yet....
...It won't stop, will it...?']
J....ust....for th...at...?
...Th...en....why di...dn't,...you do...hgkk, kff....it...earlier....?!
[He's drowning. It feels like he's drowning, but all of this...is also making him feel angry.]
Wh...y....di...dn't....you....kill me....earlier....!
[Back when he was a useless, crying person. Back when he still had hope in everything, back when Rin was still alive-
Why now, when he was, just a little bit...coming back to himself?!]