Round 4: confessions camera

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This is where you can post anything your character says in the confessions camera room. The room is soundproof, and nobody on-site will be able to see or hear anything they say in there. Everyone outside of the site will see what is said, though.

We're keeping this post unlocked so everyone can see, since previous round characters will be able to see anything said here. Just remember that stuff mentioned in here won't be known to characters participating in the round unless the character tells someone about it outside of the confession room.

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w4, saturday evening

[odasaku]

[ oda walks in, sitting down with a calm expression. whatever emotions he may be feeling on the inside, they're certainly not showing up on his face.

he sighs, and speaks. ]

I don't like doing this. [ a pause. oda looks straight at the camera, frowning. ] But I don't have a choice. The man I'd like to tell this to is long dead, after all.

[ there's another sigh, and a long pause of silence. whatever words he had come here with have been forgotten the moment he began to speak. ]

What you told me in the bar that night ate at my soul slowly. So slowly, that I never noticed it, letting it cloud my judgement with anger that I couldn't understand. It still clouds it, actually. Maybe it'll never stop.

...I wish I had never learned about it. About what you did nor why, and much less how. I wish I didn't have to think about how many lives you ruined for my sake, including your own. I wish I didn't have to look at our Host and see you instead, looking at me with a broken expression for a reason that I still can't understand. I wish I had never met you in the first place, so I could have continued my life normally.

[ ... ]

It wasn't worth it. If my death made sure that everyone else could live a normal life, then you should have left it that way. My life is not worth everything that you and others sacrificed.

[ oda closes his eyes, taking a few deep breaths before continuing. ]

But, well, that doesn't matter anymore. The damage has been done, and you're dead. So this--even this--is all for naught.